strange new addiction.

If you look at me, you can probably tell that I've been suffering from body image issues my entire life. The strange part is that I've always been obsessed with health books and magazines, and I read cookbooks like they're bestsellers. So, it's not like I don't know how to feed myself the most nutritional meals. I guess my real problem is that I never cared to do the exercising part. That is, until now.

It's a good feeling to exercise, but I think it's gotten to the point where it's a sick obsession. If I miss a workout, I find myself feeling slightly guilty and I notice that I'll start making plans for my workout that is scheduled for the next day. Maybe it's not a bad thing? I really don't know.

I do know that I didn't workout today, and right now at this very moment, I'm trying not to think about how to make it up tomorrow.

All I really want is to be healthy...and to be able to wear cute/nice clothes again. I miss looking like a girly girl, not that I was ever a girly girl, but you know what I mean.